Without even planning, I took a break from the blog, and from thinking about getting pregnant for this month. Going into this month, with the drama of "my plan" getting thwarted with my crazy period, I thought for sure this month would be...well, pretty terrible. However, in the midst of the madness, it hasn't been too bad.
Regan and I have talked about, quite a bit this month, that we really feel like there is a spiritual attack going on around us...it has been a really hard, sad, and confusing month for us...and none of it has really revolved around not being pregnant.
In addition, our house was on a Tour of Homes this past weekend, and well, let's say that our procrastination made this month extremely full of house projects.
So, all in all, this month has gone by really quickly.
I had prayed that God would use this unexpected month to perform a miracle.
He didn't choose to do that as I started my period SUPER early on Sunday(Day 23). So we will go from here I suppose.
In the mean time, our hearts are heavy for our friends that are struggling with depression, losing fathers to cancer, pregnancies confined to bed rest at 20 weeks, drug overdoses, and so much more...
Yes, I still desperately want a baby...and have cried that out this month from the depth of my heart in the midst of all the other prayers. The want doesn't ever go away, but there has definitely been a lot of distractions this month.
Patiently Praying-
Much Love-
Al
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