Our pastor started a new series yesterday on money. Yes, I think he will eventually get to the ever so common church talk on tithing. However, for the next couple weeks, he is laying a foundation and talking about how we view, value, and are controlled for the most part by money. He made an interesting point that of all things that exist in our lives, it is money that offers us the exact same thing that a relationship with Christ offers. That is why it is so hard. They both whisper to us..." I can give you everything you need." The bible tells us that God gives us everything we need for life in Godliness. Money tells us the same thing.
In the middle of the sermon, he asked us to ponder some questions that would help us identify what we have our hearts wrapped around other than God. Because that is where the truth lies, that is what is sitting on the throne of my heart. The questions were:
1. where does your mind wonder when you aren't thinking about anything else? Where does your imagination take you?
2. what do you spend your money on freely, not even thinking about it?
3. what evokes the most emotion in your life?
These answers were easy for me, though a harsh reality at the same time. My heart is wrapped around the issue of not being pregnant and getting pregnant. It has taken control of my heart, my emotions, and I am willing to spend whatever on it to make the situation different. I realized yesterday that it really isn't just a part of my life, it has become my life. I am defined by this situation, and it has taken the place of the Lord in my heart.
I am off balanced. The affections of my heart, are bound in a place of desperation, and not in the hope that God can provide.
It is pretty eye opening to realize how quickly "false gods" can creep into your heart. You don't even realize it and can easily say that it is just a place where you are, or a season of life. But honestly, the situation becomes your god. Getting pregnant, for me, has become the god that I worship, the god I spend money on, and the god that controls my emotions.
whoa.
My prayer is that my perspective will change. That instead of being consumed by the "issue" I will be consumed by the God that can fill the void. The truth is, I could get pregnant, but the void will become something else. He promises that He has given me everything I need. My prayer is that I would believe Him.
" His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness."
2 Peter 1:3
Patiently Praying for baby Ellis and allowing God to rule the thrown of my heart...
Much Love-
Al
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