It's in the little things

When you think about being in the midst of a hard time, most of what you do, see, and feel seems really negative. I have talked on here before about finding joy in the midst of this place that I find myself. Recently, after meeting with our pastor, I have been praying that God would show me His love. That I would see Him in the little things.

I write a lot about the hardship. I know that God blesses me daily, but a lot of times, those blessings seem to fall into "other" categories in my life...and not into this hardship! I know that the truth is, this struggle in itself is a blessing, however, it doesn't always feel that way.

For as much as I talk about the struggle, I also want to share in the blessing...as little as it may be.

This morning, the Lord showed me His love...in a small, but true way.

As you know, I have been following my "cycle" for over a year. My month is broken down into days. Yes, obsessive I know, but it is the truth. I am heading out of town this coming week for just one day, but knowing the days of my cycle, I knew that the one day would fall right in the midst of the "important" time...if you know what I mean! I have been praying, since I realized this, that the Lord would give me peace. That I would trust, that regardless of what day I was gone, the Lord could still work. That He is in control.

Based on how the last few months have gone, I should have gotten my positive ovulation test on either Saturday or Sunday. However, low and behold, I got it this morning. I know it only seems like 1 day early...but it isn't just that! The ONE day that I am early, means that being gone won't effect this month at all. It might seem really little and irrelevant to the average reader, but to me, it isn't little at all.

God answered my prayers, not by giving me a positive ovulation test, but by showing me His love. I was praying for His peace and a deeper trust...and in that, He totally took care of the situation. He showed me that He is in control, and instead of just giving me the peace, He also took care of the situation.

I am so grateful that He has given me the eyes to see His hand in this. It is such a great reminder, and something to cling to when I am doubting.

Patiently Praying...

Much Love-
Al