The land of crazy...

"Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed this morning?" I was asked that by Regan as he gently told me that I was being a "little" hard to deal with.

" No, I replied...I am just tired...and I am thinking about work today...and how busy it will be."

A few minutes later...

"and I am mentally preparing myself for hanging out with _________ (a good friend of mine), because I have a feeling that she is going to drop the "I am pregnant" bomb on me!"

And that, my friends, is the honest truth.

This morning, I was so consumed with the fact that my friend MIGHT be telling me she is pregnant today, that I was a little,okay, maybe a lot  hard to deal with this morning.

These are my context clues...

1. I was told months ago from a mutual friend of ours that "said" friend would probably be trying soon...

2. and, when we started to plan what we would do, she offered to come to my house.

3. We haven't picked a place yet, normally we grab a drink, but I am assuming...since I think she is prego, that grabbing a drink isn't an option...hence why we haven't picked a place yet.

That is it.

Call me crazy, but I have a feeling.

Or just call me crazy, because that is pretty much how I feel.

I have been praying about these feelings all morning, and they don't seem to subside.

I am anxious, for potentially NO reason.

I project and prepare myself for a situation that may not even happen.

Honestly, though I have been here before, I don't know what to do...

So, I am going to try again.

I am choosing with the help of the Lord, because I am not strong enough to do it on my own, to lay it down.

To believe that even if the above scenario happens, I will be okay.

Lord, this is not about ME, this is about YOU. Help me to relinquish control, to trust in you, and to believe that Your power is made perfect in my weakness. I pray that you carry me, for I can't seem to find my footing. You alone are God, and You alone are faithful.

I read this blog post today by Angie Smith, the author of the book I am reading What Women Fear. Two things stuck out to me most...1 kinda silly, and 1 not so much...

I need the Lord to be MY big, puffy, red life jacket...because I can't do this on my own and lastly, I need to have the eyes of Jesus and see the blessings in the little things.

Patiently Praying-

Much Love-
Al