Baby Shower Over Load...

Two baby showers in one week. Poor planning or what?

I wasn't really thinking about the implications when my boss asked me if she could host a work shower for my friend and co-worker the same week my best friend and I are hosting a shower for her.

I am realizing those implications now.

To be honest, I had kinda forgotten about the work shower completely. "Forgotten" and "pushed back into the recesses of my mind" are often interchangeable words for me. I had probably subconsciously decided not to think about it, because well, the thoughts are kinda hard to deal with.

Until today.

When I got an email reminder about it.

I almost find it easier to think about hosting the shower than to just be an attendee. I have found it easy to start a mental check list of all the things that I can do while hosting the shower at my house that will keep me distracted. I can easily tidy up, re-stock food, make sure everyone is okay, and so on.  I won't have those same distractions tomorrow, I will just have my thoughts and baby talk. I will have to fake being okay and excited to be there, when the reality is...it will be really hard.

Unbeknownst to me, until just now, I have found myself slipping into a funk today. I think it is a mental preparation tactic that I do to attempt to get the sadness out now before the actual events happen. I have slipped into self-protection mode. I can tell, I can feel it. Yet, I don't know how to not do it.

My prayer is that the Lord will give me strength, the words to say, and the courage to be available. I don't know what it will be like to attend and host a baby shower in the state that I am in, but I am clinging to the truth that the Lord goes before me and won't give me more than I can handle. I am praying for the trust and the ability to believe that with everything that I am.

On another note, my newest read just came in the mail!

I was shocked when it came, because it is kinda like a text book...literally!

I am however, really excited about it! I, so far, really love the approach that fertility treatment is best when it is natural. Society is too quick to jump into IVF and IUI before really understanding what is going on and possibly hindering pregnancy. That is what the book has talked about so far and it has been a comfort to me. I have said before on this blog that I am fearful about having to think in the direction of fertility treatment. I am excited to see what the book says about the natural approach to solving some very common issues in getting pregnant with changes as simple as what you eat!

Trust me, you will hear more about this book as I make my way through it!

Funny thought to end the post, the way I found out about this book was on Guilianna and Bill! Love that show.

Patiently Praying-

Much Love-
Al