If you don't have them, you don't understand. To be known fully and loved despite, isn't something that comes from everyone...and thankfully it does come from my sister.
I went to bed last night with the email from my older sister waiting in my inbox. I decided that I would wait until today to read it. It is almost like she was in my heart. Like she had woken up with me today...in this new place I found myself.
Like I said yesterday, I got my period, the cycle continues. I mentioned to Regan last night, I don't know how much longer I can ride this roller coaster. I know the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle, but I honestly feel like I am almost at my limit.
However, as with every roller coaster, or every cycle, there is a place of hope a peak. I think that day comes every month after the sadness of getting my period fades. It is a new month, there is a new chance, we are starting over.
That is why the email that my sister sent to me spoke to my soul.
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I have hope buried deep in the depths of my heart. I know it is there, though sometimes I doubt.
God is working in the waiting, and for that reason, I remain hopeful.
Patiently Praying-
Much Love-
Al
Now that I have dried my eyes and stopped sobbing, I can respond. I pray for you and Regan daily. I know this journey feels like hell for you. Out of this pit will come joy and glory for the Lord like you will have never seen. I know he is using this time to strengthen you both. Even though we are miles apart, I miss and love you so much Big Al! Sending you hugs and love.
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